Today we went to the doctors.... And we went over the MRI.....Only to find out that there are more tumors further down on my spine. This explains the paralyzation in my right leg and left arm and all the joint and nerve damage issues I'm having. The Dr. said that this may be a permanent issue with the lame leg and arm and the inability to walk. He has no more treatment for me except to make me comfortable (by sending me a nurse, a hospital bed and more painkillers) until the end. (I'd hate to tell him that the end is nowhere near). I asked about radiation and he said if you want to...so we are thinking about it.....hmmmmm?
Dear Dr.,
I disagree with your prognosis. I promise you that I will be here for my 40th birthday (april) and my daughter's 11th birthday (may) and the Fourth of July 2014. I promise you that my left arm will be in working condition and I promise you I will be walking again. You'll see. I have stuff to do and too many friends keeping me here. You must not realize that I have no other choice but to fight this unfair crap. I'm sorry you don't agree.
Monica
Praying for you with all my heart. Stay strong and fight the fight.
ReplyDeleteI was directed here by my cousin's lovely wife Irene. I do not know you, but please let me tell you that you make one hell of a first impression. I am going to read your whole blog now. May strength and love be yours. I'm humbled by your courage.
ReplyDeleteMonica, I've typed and erased about a dozen comments so far--nothing seems adequate, nothing seems right. I guess all I really want to make sure you know is I love you, I'm praying for you, and I so desperately wish for a return to perfect health for you. My heart aches reading what your doctor said, but it smiles reading your response. That's the girl I've admired since college. Thank you for being so brave, even when it must be difficult. The memories we share are some of my favorites (I'm especially thinking about that trip to Breckenridge when you came to visit me in Boulder a million years ago!) and you have forever changed me in positive ways. xoxo
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